status quo, that's the best.
real close without making things complicated and risk falling out
again.intimate but just really good friends.
all because i treasure you
this much. thanks for everything love.
it's like suddenly you feel your heart is lighter and everything is just clearing up nicely. you can say the miss yous and love yous and fuck yous without feeling guilt in your heart and wondering whether it was appropriate to say those words at that time and basically, you just dont have to tire yourself out by picking up the pieces that were left behind. it's amazing how even though there's so much bad history and how i once said "i can never be friends because it's just too hard so it's goodbye forever" i guess i love to dramatise things hee hee but guess what i feel so spiritually lifted
and now i can call you as many times as i want without thinking "hmm have i called him too many times today" and not wait for phonecalls at night or throughout the day which can be so damn tiring and annoying and when he doesnt call you start thinking about why is he not calling and whether you should call. i sound like a small girl crushing over some boy haha. it's really not like that. and lastly, i can say i love you without questioning myself whether i really mean it and thinking about all the terrible consequences you'd have to face up to if anything goes wrong. because i do really love you as a friend. and let's face it everytime something happens between us in less than 24 hrs i will pick up a fight and everything just goes down the drain.
i love your company and your laughter and your voice and all the stupid things that you do. and even though you can get VERY flirty and cheeky and just do your thing (like how you do it to most girls hahaha) it's all these that really makes me bask in your presence. i doubt i have ever came across ANY guy much like you because you are, i can safely say one of a fucking kind. haha
i hope this lasts and both of us can keep it up. and no candy, it's not
"friends with benefits"(: